he kissed me in my dream last night

last night i had a dream about an ex. those are always the worst. it left me thinking about him and mostly thinking about who i was when i was with him. i know that the person i am now is in a better place but i cant help but miss this past keely. the one who had less regard for her mothers opinion and was willing to do whatever she liked. being with gary is wonderful and inspires me to always try my hardest and aim towards success. but god success can be exhausting. and how much does it really pay off in the end? success = money. and money makes life easy. thats what ive deduced at least. well and thats what my mother has drilled into my head and i have to trust her. but man it was fun just fucking around and indulging in every sensory want i had.

time for finals

hi everyone! Natalie your bb boy is looking so adorable! I am going to see you guys over Christmas Break so be prepared!! I believe we need a team team + baby adventure of sorts.

Thanksgiving Break was awesome!!! I went to the A&M T.U. game. Wow, I really hate longhorn fans. They make me crazy. After the game I convinced Gary that it was a good idea to drive to the Houston Outlets and do a little black friday shopping :) poor guy he did not have a clue what he was in for!! haha well I have been black friday shopping before so I knew what to expect. We got a really nice set of pots and pans for his new house, and two NFL jerseys for him and for me - CLOTHES! yay! Then we went home and had a belated thanksgiving dinner and it was yummers. I didnt eat as much as I wouldve liked. thanksgiving to me is all about stuffing your face and sadly i did not this year. There is always next year to gain 5 lbs!!!. Speaking of pounds, I bet declan gets heavier by the day! Work those biceps Nat!!!

Now I am back to school and have two weeks until finals! I cant wait! I just want them to be over! Julie I bet you are feeling me about now. I also think that when you are done with your finals that you should stop in college station and stay the night with me!!! PLEASE!! I miss you like crazy. Also I think you need to write a blog that is dedicated to this mysterious 'new man' in your life!!! I am dying for some deets over here. Also I would like to say that ben is gay and im glad youve moved on to an in state boyfriend! YAY!

My wittle puppers doggie is much bigger now and still super cutes!

see yall over christmas! we are going to the trail of lights if they are open and if not we are going to dinner or something else wonderful :)

lets play house

so today gary and i went looking at houses! he is planning on being here another 5 years for his job and is readyto buy a house so we have begun looking. it is so much fun playing house! i feel spoiled that i am getting to experience this process at only 20. we went to a little neighborhood called autumn lake. they always have the lamest names. anyway it was very cute new little houses. i can picture cleo and abella running around in the backyard and me and gary chilling in the master bedroom. crazy. i am a little nervous but mostly i dont care! i am vary happy and i feel so safe with gary i know we could always take care of eachother. i think about little bebes. scary. i know i am getting older because little critters are running around on my mind. which is a good thing because i think it will take like 5 years for me to get used to the idea. so gary should have a new house by springtime and it will have plenty of extra room for guests! that means team team visitation time!!! :)

i am so excited that i discovered you can put pictures on here. i know my puppy is not as adorable as declan is..... but shes still pretty cute!

Halloweeny

hi all. i painted my nails special with halloween stickers to celebrate the occasion. I was a biker chick friday night and a nerd on saturday night. damn next year i need to come up with some more creative costume. the most awesome costumes i saw last night were zach galifinakis from the hangover LOL and a dude in full wedding day drag. also i took a picture with a BAKED POTATO! dont worry that one is coming soon on my profile.

okay so i just realized that i can post pictures so here is one of cleo in her turtle costume. she was PRECIOUS! i wanted to take her to petsmart hallowen but i called on friday and they said they had done it last tuesday. that is DUMB considering halloween is on a saturday.

school is officially kicking my ass and i am beginning to have my freak out sessions where i think im completely unprepared and behind. but im just gonna 'power through' and pray for thanksgiving break. and christmas. oh and graduation.

i miss team team. and julie you follow so many other blogs now. i cant wait to meet declan. he is the sweetest look bebe

and time flys by

i am doing pretty good i think. i forgot how quickly school makes time go by. like i only think in weeks and then all the sudden a few months have gone by!

OH YEA! i had a baby too! not :)! i got a puppy! so it is kind of the same thing. gary actually bought her for me but she is all mine and she is very sweet and well behaved. it is nice to come home to some puppy luvs but also annoying because i cant leave for the weekend and like not come home or something. but oh well! i kind of did this like, oh can i make a commitment to gary? and so far that is going well too. i dont talk to matt anymore and i realize that i want more from my life.

although i am having to remember to take time for myself. i kind of miss how matt lived far away and i just had these sex getaways and then came back and focused on myself in school. but then gary helps me with school and i realize that i love him so much more i just am not very good at compromising maybe.

anyway enough about boys.... sorry :(

OMG i dont know if yall watch true blood on HBO but. the show is based off of these books written by charlaine harris and they are AWESOME!!!! i bought them off amazon all in a set of 9 and they have been so entertaining. it is awesome that i could just pick up another right after the other bc there were so many!!!! but sadly i am done and now have nothing to read and distract me from whats actually happening!!

i feel blah over all but i am just passing the time with school.

school starts on monday! AHH!

i am all moved in to my new apartment! it is awesome, it also has hardwood floors like julies :) i put together all of my awesome ikea furniture and i bought new sheets for my big ass queen bed. and i actually have a tv in my bedroom! this is a first! cable, in my bed! my room is adorable and all teal and pretty. i love it. my new roommate taylor is awesome. i love living with a girl and esp one that is my friend!

and i got a pupppppppy! look at the pics on fb. she is adorable. i named her cleo which is kind of a crappy name i feel but its a little too late now. i have no idea how nat picked a babys name! cleo is a beagle basset hound mix and she is precious. its like having a little baby to take care of. ill have to ask natalie in the future but this is certainly the closest ive ever gotten to motherhood!

school starts on monday and naturally i am very freaked out. i hate change and get scared everytime something new is happening. im always thinking omg its coming, things are going to be different!! and it terrifies me. but monday will be here before i know it and i will just swing on into things. this semester will be so busy with school my job my puppy gary and my life. money will be tight. but i will make it work! i hope :)

august

i am so sad that julie never ever writes in her blog.
i am also sad that no one comments on my blogs ever, but i guess that my fault bc no one really reads them and a lot of the time they are depressing.

i am living at garys house! things are going super well. i like it here and im comfortable. also i love that i get to hang out with abella (our rhodesian ridgeback) all day. i do his laundry and pretend that im a housewie on days that i dont work.

still i much rather want to move into my new place!! i cant wait! i have all this new awesome furniture from ikea and i have an awesome roommate. plus i am dying for school to start. natalie is right, august is a great month. and honestly i welcome the last month of summer bc its too hot for me to lasst much longer. i am so excited about this fall. the weather :) oh and also i love the dress in fall and i have a bad ass jacket i cant wait for it to be chilly!

gary bought me new make up the other day so ive been having lots of fun playing paint my face. ive also discovered that blue eyeshadow is not really for me :) i think i need blonde hair for that shit.

and you know else will happen this august? our couples sleep over at john knox! im still not sure if gary will make it but if not i will enjoy myself anyway. smores are definitely called for. i cant wait!!