okay i just decided!! ive always known that i want to do something with my life. i mean really make something! create change!! inspire people! make the world a better place. but holy shit HOW?!? im a lowly little horticulture major at texas a&m. i study for my tests and make good grades, how fucking innovative. but it came to me. i want to do some thing with horticulture and pharmocology! and study little shroomies!! or psychedelic plants, or just herbal medecine. i found a new word and im inspired by it! ethnopharmacology! it is the study of different ethnicities and their cultural uses for drugs and their effects. who knows what this could lead to?!? i just want to figure out how to get there. i feel like im doing NOTHING for my future. i mean i make good grades and im getting an internship and blah blah blah awards participation so on but who gives a crap about that shit anyway. i dont want to be a florist or a fucking landscape architect or fruit and nut production manager. i want to change lives!!! i want to work for the government or a nonprofit organization or a hospital. i want to go places!! im 19 how do i do this?!?! i have no idea?!? do you? i suck at research. anyway im excited!