he kissed me in my dream last night

last night i had a dream about an ex. those are always the worst. it left me thinking about him and mostly thinking about who i was when i was with him. i know that the person i am now is in a better place but i cant help but miss this past keely. the one who had less regard for her mothers opinion and was willing to do whatever she liked. being with gary is wonderful and inspires me to always try my hardest and aim towards success. but god success can be exhausting. and how much does it really pay off in the end? success = money. and money makes life easy. thats what ive deduced at least. well and thats what my mother has drilled into my head and i have to trust her. but man it was fun just fucking around and indulging in every sensory want i had.